Weakness and toughness

I found my weakness today,
I was too easy.
Look at your true friend living in life,
They also fought,and won.

OK,I am easy person, but I know I shouldn't be superficial.
That's what I felt since I came to Japan all the time.
They are superficial!
Holy shit that's exactly the same as what i thought last time for my boyfriend,
I'm losing respect for Japanese people.
Bad Toshimi,you are evil.
But I can't help it at the moment,sorry,let me think about it for a while.

Also I'm already felt hard to keep the balance of those cultures.
I'm trying to be honest as much as possible, but sometimes it hurts people in Japan.
And I have to be very careful to choose the word : as usual.
I respect humans soul,
I respect the word.
And I actually loving people.

So, to be honest I'm not happy to be in Japan so far.
Then I shouldn't,and have to fight with tiresome English applications!!
Otherwise I'm a just complaining person!!!