Fatal word

I'm thinking about Willem and Jacqueline again.
to be honest they are scares me and I had enough actually.
I cannot be happy anymore?
too much heavy time I spend last week.
I know they are nice but...
I think I'm too involved,
now is the time for leaving.
I shall ask Jacqueline if it's not nice for them. I think it's not of course.
but I couldn't get rid of his scary face.
it really broke my heart.
that was the fatal blow.
oh my god...
I am really knocked down.
hope, really hope tomorrow is fine.