problem about Japanese culture

I really really honest today.
And I realized what I really longing for.

Thanks to Jaqueline, Icould find it.
that I need friend who really don't judge me about everything about back ground, or really can share my view.
and no more hiding any ubnormal things in Japan.
(could be EVERYTHING!!!)

That's what I longing for.
and That's why I came to abroad.
I need to share my view.
I mean really.

But it's so, so deep rooted woth my own culture,and hard to get rid of it.
even with my best friend.
I relief myself,,,,

It is all about judgement.
Everyone hide negative experience of happening now,,
like this person is disabled, this person's parents were divorced, because this person is dipressed,,,
What is that?
It's just truth.
It's nothing to do with their mind or charactor!!

What a bullshit,
How it can be everyone is NORMAL??

IT IS IMPOSSIBLE
everyone has their own ctross.
everyone has their own story.
and everyone has experience.

Look at me.
My parents are devorsed,when I was 14,
My sister is died when I was 8,
My mother has mentalpeoblem now,
but what then?
I'm not misery person at all!!

You see I'm happy person.
Look what is in your mind now.
and be honest.
probably you start to judging.i bet you.
I can imagine what kind of picture you have about me.

but,forget about all thouse judgement happens in your mind.
I know it's just automatically happens in Japan.

How can I coop with it?
I experienced all the time actually, also you ofcause.
And also I know it's impossible to change another person's view.

Hey, probably don't know what I mention about exactly.
Yes it is hard to express something cause sympasize or make person heavy feeling.

But I really longing for to be myself.
ans be understand really.
That's the reason.
Yes, that's it.