Racism in my mind.

I spend very important and impressed weekend.
7childrens have bad behavior in school or house or whatever, came to our place.
Childrens are overall sweet,but sometime, you know, difficult to handle with.

But, I felt interested in childrens.
It never happens when I in Japan strangely.
Even I feel like to have job with such children.

this is one of my impressed thing.
the other one happend when we went indmesian restaurant in sneek.

We just taiked about which part of asia you'd been travel.
My hosts,never.
I said, I've been to China once.
and, I said, China didn't facsinate me.
Because I 've got terrible stomacahe there,and water is not nice to drink....

At that time, Jaquline said,
Bust you shouldn't say that things just because water is bad, there should be another reason you cannnot like China.
The reason is deep roots of War between Japan and China, isn't it?

I thought, I don't brame China because of historical thing,
But I couldn't find real reason WHY I cannot accept China...
There must be trustful person, but overall I don't trust them from bottom of my heart,I realized, It was shocked me.

I tried to find the reason.
I had unghappy experience in restaurant when I been to China, they treat us different from local.
They treat us like we will make a mess on their table, so they placed plastic seat on the table.other table is not.
It was racism.
Is this sould be the reason?
NO.

Or they copied Japanese pop song as a official theme song for EXPO in Shanghai.and they seem no regret for that.
Is this could be the reason??
NO.

I actually find me as not trust Chinese.
I brainwashed by media or history maybe.
She told me I sould be brave.

"trust"it changes the world.
'trust'it is love.
I shall forget every negative thinking about people whoever.
It makes my world better, full of love.
by not only love the person who surround me.
Let my negative thinking away .
Every morning,or every moment is new start.
It is my choice.
I can decide ,or create my view ofcause.
I need to change my way of thinking to the world.
everyone is coneccting to the world and it couldn't ignore.
Face to my problem.this is what we discussed yesterday.